Finding my way
A couple days a go I’ve met my friends from high school.
Gosh 6 years since we graduated. Time flies.
They said 6 years in Jakarta didn’t change me. I am still the women with the iron heart (sounds cool to me) as I was in high school. Just because I am 24 with money in my bank account and I don’t have boyfriend and still far away from any kind of relationship. And whatsoever talk that I don’t really understand my self.
Not like I really care with what people said, but I think 6 years make people changes. And not having “boy friend” is not the parameter. And why is in this world people think that having those kind relationship is the most important things in life? Where that shallow thinking comes from?
So I look back and analyze my life so I come with the answers, what I have been through for these 6 years.
- FEUI and the “asrama”. I called the “the door”. Since I walk through that door, I lived again. Every people that I meet add a colour in my life. Every relationship that I had contains so much love. Greater than man and women relation ship which I think more selfish.
- Mba Indri, somehow through her I revealed something that I hide so deep and I don’t realize so many anger that I had and I still have. And how I am struggling to face it. And tell her all my stories make me relief. And she can understand coz she felt the same problem. I really thank her for this.
- The moment. When you’re alone. Independent, stand up with your own feet. To survive. I am lucky to feel those in my early age.
- Girl friends. My arisan group (loly, wuri, sani), My PwCers Leny, Olin, Lisa, My having fun team, nany, yanti, meli, phenky, ayep, sao, ly, and other who I can mentioned one by one. It’s a heart to heart relationship gals.
- PwC who give me (so far) all the taste. The most depressed time, the most happy time, the most wicked friends, the many places to visits, every first time, the money, the experience, the school of life.
- UBW 2003. One week of the memorable time.
- And the love himself that I’ve met during those years. It is finding its way.
All those make me changes. And don’t need people who barely know me to make any judgment. So far my life is rich and I will achieve what I want to achieve, I learn what I have to learn, become what I want to be.
June 2nd, 2006 at 1:20 am
I have questioned also the same thing about all parameters that we used to definite someone’s achievements (in this case “changes”). Why “relationship” being so important? Why people sometimes force themselves in those relationships just to make impressions to other? To my mind, this parameter is not sufficient to definite changes. I’m with you on this.
June 2nd, 2006 at 10:44 am
There’s some ppl that are just so stuck in a very narrow mindedness on viewing this life As. A relationship isn’t just about BF-GF, daughter-mother; friends; co-worker are important as well. I am sure u’ve changed a lot since high school. c’mon… to live in Jkt by ur self, struggled to graduate with a flying-colour from FEUI, and striving to give ur best in PwC are some important factors in changing any human being. And if he/she can’t think of that, i’d say: mind ur own business man!
June 3rd, 2006 at 1:32 am
Anyway, keep those money comin to the bank, k…
C u around…
June 5th, 2006 at 4:11 am
Whoaa… I remember song from Rush called Finding My Way… “Findin my way!
Ive been gone so long
Ive lost count of the years
Well, I sang some sad songs,
Oh yes, and cried some bad tears”
people seem judge others way as strange way, but actually it is “a way”. and since the baginning actually people have walked in their way, but just dont realize until some miles and years…
Well.. miles and miles way to go ahead…fiuuuhhh..
June 20th, 2006 at 5:25 am
I’ve sent friend request 2 U since ’bout 2 months ago…
Ok. U’re changing if U don’t add me (live in Jkt too & known as Ur hi school pren)..hehe
Jadilah apa yg terbaik dr drmu
Dhian
http://keindahan_cinta.blogs.friendster.com/dhian_erika/